Be Nice or Leave.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve made a post, but I haven’t had anything really to talk about.

Well today, I finally do.

Last night, I got into a discussion on how crappy my parents were to me. They never paid the least bit of attention to me prior to their nasty divorce, and they’ve been trying to make up for that for the past 11 years. And they have failed miserably. I can tell. They are making up for their failure with me by actually trying with their new kids (both have two sons in their new marriages). But where did that leave me? “Oh wait, we have a daughter. Maybe we should put forth an effort to at least pretend she matters. 

So my grandmother and I discussed it and she said once they get caught up, they’ll send me to get some counseling because Lord knows I need it. My parents have always used me to get back at the other parent, and I hate being in that. I hate when I get sick, it’s one of my parents’ faults, when in all honesty, it’s my fault I got sick, no one else’s. Or how my dad blames my mom for my emotional problems, when he is to blame as well. 

-sigh-

thedailywhat:

Stop-Motion Short of the Day: Scala & Kolacny Brothers’ haunting choral cover of Radiohead’s “Creep” made famous by the trailer for David Fincher’s The Social Network gets a suitably haunting music video, courtesy of animator Alex Heller.

[kuriositas.]

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thedailywhat:

Cinematic Topography of the Day: Redditor subtonix says: “I made a map of what movies I think best represent US states. Hope I didn’t miss any…”

Fargo for Minnesota? I think not. What else did he/she get wrong?

(Embiggen.)

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Y’know, every time I hear this song, I cry. Seriously. I cry like a baby.

With that being said, Noah Allen is the only exception. Before I met him, I had been through a lot of heartbreak, at only 17 years old. I had a boyfriend dump me for a girl he’d been seeing on the side, then he proposed to her the next week, and he was the first guy to say he loved me. Another guy was seeing five other girls on the side, but he dumped all of us for one other girl and I wasted four damn months of my life pining over him just to realize I didn’t love him. 

Then I met Noah. He was this shy, goofy guy and I thought, “Hey, he’s gonna be one of my best friends.” We talked about Star Wars, Family Guy, Cobra Starship and how stupid some people are. When we first dated, I didn’t think it would last. I broke up with him after a few weeks because, frankly, I was afraid of getting hurt again. I avoided relationships like the plague. And no matter how bad I treated him, he always came back. I wish I could go back and not cheat on him or go back and let him kiss me in the copy room, but I can’t. That whole summer before our senior year, I went as far as telling him I was already seeing someone when he professed his love for me. And it was just because so many guys had already hurt me, I was scared that the greatest guy I’d ever met was going to do the same. If I could go back to 17-year-old me, I’d tell her to go for it, because he is the single greatest guy you’ll ever meet. He loves me, even when I’m the biggest, raging bitch on the face of the earth. When I need him, he’s always there, even when he’s not there. I don’t know where I’d be without him. And yes, people disapprove of our togetherness, but we don’t care. All that matters to us is that we love each other. He’s my absolute best friend. And I want to be there with him until the very end.

I love you. 

People actually watch my vlogs on YouTube. I don’t think I’m that interesting, nor are the things I talk about. Anyways. Thanks to people who bothered to watch! :3

NEW HAIR! :D

thedailywhat:

Not Loving It of the Day: Toledo resident Melodi Dushane experienced a major McMeltdown after being told by a McDonald’s drive-thru attendant that 6:30AM was too early for McNuggets.

This incident took place on New Year’s Day, but Toledo officials have just released raw security footage of the fast-food kerfuffle following Ms. Dushane’s grand jury indictment.

[thanks cw!]

I know, I know, I said I’d stop doing “I hate” posts. But I’m sorry. 

It isn’t anything huge, but it’s something that’s been annoying me lately. I hate when people that talked trash about me decide OUT OF FUCKING NOWHERE to be nice to me (i.e. “I want to be civil with you.”), especially when I tried being civil, I was called a bitch and creepy and was questioned repeatedly as to why I had the change of heart. 

Because, I mean I have no problem with being civil. It’s just the constant questioning of things I do that annoys me. For instance, I had a friend on my list that I never talked to, so I BALEETED her. Her best friend, girl who wants to be “civil,” interrogates me as to why I did so. I was like “I just never talked to her.” “Then why add her in the first place?” No, I didn’t reply. I don’t have to answer to her. She’s not in any way a close friend of mine or anything. I mean, she was at one time, but so much fucking drama has come between us (we’re both to blame for that), and there’s no way we can go back to how things used to be. I just wish she could be civil with me in a friendly way and not in a Facebook “creeper” way. Y’know what I’m talking about. The way that your parents question every fucking status or like you put up. Yeah.

The thing is, people don’t seem to understand why I decided to be civil. I mean, she sent me possibly the most vicious text message (took shots at my speech impediment, my relationship with my boyfriend, my looks, etc.), kept talking trash about me and my friends. I blocked her on Facebook because I wasn’t going to be harassed by her. I unblock her and her boyfriend and a friend of hers, and they all go into “WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER? SHE’S UP TO SOMETHING” mode. No, I wasn’t . And that’s what irks me the most. In any fucking situation I get into, where I shouldn’t be the one apologizing, I apologize and everyone thinks I’m just being a bitch. It just pisses me off so fucking much. I’ve had it up to -here- with people who NEVER take blame for ANYTHING and never FUCKING apologize for anything. Noah always says I apologize too much. I’m starting to see that now. I need to stop being so fucking forgiving all the time. And yes, if you’re reading this, it is about you. So either you’re my friend in a friendly way, or you can fucking delete me and talk all the trash you want about me. I don’t give a damn anymore. 

MGMT (Andrew VanWyngarden & Ben Goldwasser), Flash Delirium.

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I know I always start my posts with “I hate.” I swear this will be the last one for a long while. I hate telling people what I want. I feel like I’m being an overbearing bitch. But, this is serious, guys!

Okay, so mine and Noah’s two year anniversary is approaching. I’ve gotten all of his gifts (Fight Club Blu-ray, The 3rd box set of Naruto Shippuden, and the 12th installment in The Walking Dead comic series). Well he keeps asking me “What do you want?” 

First, when a girl you’ve been with for two years says “Surprise me,” what do you think she means?

I want him to propose. Like, baaaad. And it’s not a “hey, let’s go get hitched now!” kind of deal. I want him to propose to A) show that he’s in this for the long run, B) because I know the boy loves me enough to do it, and C) to really stick a huge middle finger to our friends/family. I love him more than life itself, really. But the thing is, I’m terrified of putting pressure on people. I’m scared that if I tell him for ONCE what I want, it’ll run him off. I know he won’t run off, but I still have that fear jabbing me.  So I’m in this dilemma.

And I don’t want to seem needy. I hate feeling needy. It sucks. But that is what I want. And no, I don’t want a huge ass diamond on my hand. I wouldn’t care if he even did that. He could give me a piece of string to tie around my left ring finger and I’d be happy. I just want him to assure me that he’s in for the long run.

Typhlosion <3

thedailywhat:

OMG! Adorbz of the Day: Redditor pillowplumper writes: “The nerdiest love note I’ve ever sent a boy.”

Pure, unadulterated D’AW.

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Swim by Jack’s Mannequin. Getting my tattoo that was inspired by the song. :) Enjoyyyyy

Haters gonna hate.